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10 PM Thoughts

It has been a really long while since the last update. I mean it's March already! Oh my God, where did the time goes? I still have this habit of thinking that it is still February, I don't even know why. Probably because of the aging factor eh? Hahaha! Oh well, it is 5th March already, so yeah.

I still can't shake the feeling of how fast the time flies - period. Yesterday, I had this conversation with my postgraduates friends and we talked about many things. Among of those many things, included how long have they been here in Perlis and some of them said 11 years and some of them said 7 years and so on. Me myself, this year is the 5th year I am here in Perlis and this just hits me. I went "What....?" every single time I realized this. Perlis pretty much is my second home right now and I truly love this place! It lacks the urban hectic lifestyle and offers tranquility that I really love. The greenery view is still accessible here and it is easy to the eyes. Don't you just love the feeling of relief when you see the beautiful greenery view in front of you whenever you're stressed out? I sure do! 

Looking all of those juniors roaming around the campus sometimes hits me that I am old and the memories came flooding back and I thought," haa, how I miss being like them". They have a routine - going to class, finishing the assignment, taking the quiz, the tests, sitting for the exams - oh my... I never thought I would be missing all of that so much as I am typing this!!! I guess this happens when your life is practically immersing yourself is research papers and using the brain most of the time. Mentally tired - that is what I am experiencing these days. But don't get me wrong, I am not regretting the decision of furthering my studies, it's just that...at times, the reality just hits me that we are destined for different things, different paths. Life goes on and you just gotta follow the flow, they say. We just have to keep moving forward one step at a time. 

If I am being honest, without our past experiences, we wouldn't be what or who we are today. They say let bygones be bygones. In my opinion, the past experiences made the us today, it motivates us in a way that we probably never know how. What we cannot do is to dwell on the past because we certainly can't change it. All we have to do is be grateful for every single blessings, for every chances that came upon us. That's my 10PM thoughts, till then. 

xoxo,yours truly

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