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New Year, New Resolution?

Assalamualaikum and have a good day.

Today is the third day of the year 2019 and the first post for 2019 for me, so...yeay? Hahaha...anyways, I am pretty sure all of us can agree that each new year that have come upon us, each of them brings us a hell of adventures that by the end of the day, we learned something new, something worth to be a guide for us in our journey, something to ponder about, something precious. I have seen my friends on social media posting what 2018 had been for them. I, for one, haven't been able to do it...because...hmm...I wonder why I never did. Nevertheless, my 2018 is the same like the others. I've gone through the ups, the down, the surprises that it brought upon me - all of it. The most exciting for me in 2018 is that I got to finish and graduated on time for my degree. So this deserves a yeayy!!!

Now then for 2019, I don't have any expectation - hell, I have never put any expectations on anything or anyone because it's just not fair for me. For starters, I celebrated my New Year somewhere far from home, which is truly depressing for me. The reason: I successfully enrolled myself back in the same university where I'd study my degree, only now, I am a master student. I am back for more people! Therefore, my new year resolution would probably be is to challenge myself on things I have no confidence in doing, but in shaa Allah, with His will, I will try my best in furthering my education here. Did I mention alone? Hahaha. I guess my life motto is always just do it yknow, so I don't really mind the loneliness that I felt every single day. It's a new lifestyle I have to start to get use to. My friends are far from me but I always know they are there. So, no biggie on that. But there is a problem with a hungry tummy. So Imma go and grab my lunch now. 

Till my next posting! 
xoxo

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