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[CONT] All About Him

...continuation of previous post...

She never realized that she was not okay until she felt her anxiety surfacing, facing trouble to sleep, irregular sleeping habit, etc. One day, her lecturer asked to see her for progress report. She went even though that night she finally able to sleep at 4AM...4...freaking...in the morning. Guess what, she woke up fresh at 7AM! Well, she had been known as a person who easily to be woken up, but still only 3 hours of sleep is dangerous. Never do that kids. So, she went, and reported her progress had a nice direct to the point kind of discussion with her supervisor, everything went well. That was until, her lecturer asked, was she really okay. She contemplated on telling her lecturer what was going on and at the same time she wondered does everything is written all over her face? Eventually, she told her lecturer the story. In return, her lecturer gave a handful of advice for her to ponder. Whether she heeded it or not, that was all up to her.

After that meeting, she decided to start over, to rebuild. She slowly picked herself up, the shattered pieces, one by one. She knew that she will not be the same as before, however, deep down, she also knew that she would came around and be stronger than before. She started to see her worth, started to see which side of her to improve and which side of her to just stay the way they were because it was already perfect. With the little strength she had at the time, she slowly...started to walk away & leave the spot where she was previously at. The waiting game spot, she called it. She said,"There will no more sad tears from here onward. There will no more falling for the wrong choices from here onward. In shaa Allah, aamiin,".

Now, she is ready for her new adventure, opening doors to new opportunities, and new love.


............All About Him - THE END.........

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