On nights like this, she often wonders all the what ifs.
Through the night, such thoughts wonder over and over until she fell asleep and woke up to the same routine the very next day.
On such nights too, she wishes and plans to retreat from certain people's life.
Just because she felt she was another burden to them, though perhaps, she never was.
On such nights, at certain point, the thoughts are just too much, too overwhelming that tears threatened to run down her cheeks.
Each time that happens, she forces them back, she refuses to shed another sad tears.
But who is she kidding though?
Because later that night, under the covers, facing the walls, in the dark of the night, the tears shall fall and be her sole companion on such nights.
On nights like this, she thought, what does it feel to lose some attachments?
To lose some people whom she adores too much, how does it feel like to lose them for the greater good?
"Do not keep thing to yourself", they said.
"Talk to us", they said.
But,
Will they listen without judging?
Will they merely listening without judging?
Through the night, such thoughts wonder over and over until she fell asleep and woke up to the same routine the very next day.
On such nights too, she wishes and plans to retreat from certain people's life.
Just because she felt she was another burden to them, though perhaps, she never was.
On such nights, at certain point, the thoughts are just too much, too overwhelming that tears threatened to run down her cheeks.
Each time that happens, she forces them back, she refuses to shed another sad tears.
But who is she kidding though?
Because later that night, under the covers, facing the walls, in the dark of the night, the tears shall fall and be her sole companion on such nights.
On nights like this, she thought, what does it feel to lose some attachments?
To lose some people whom she adores too much, how does it feel like to lose them for the greater good?
"Do not keep thing to yourself", they said.
"Talk to us", they said.
But,
Will they listen without judging?
Will they merely listening without judging?
"On nights like this, I wish I could just disappear", she thought.